Stem cell transplant

Posted on April 17th, 2008 by Cam.
Categories: Let's talk.

Today was my stem cell transplant. We arrived about 8:30 this morning. The whole process took until about 4:30 this afternoon.

First I was hydrated solidly for about 4 hours via drip. Then a concoction of premeds was loaded into me. I basically just lay down for the whole day solidly. Thankfully I was given some sedatives to take away the restlessness. I did not sleep at all well last night. My body ached with an insatiable yearning to move around and get out of this body with the tubes sticking out of it.

All night I just lay awake thinking of people who have it worse than I. I had these graphic images in my semi-slumber of people who are sick that don’t have access to medical facilities. Images also of people being tortured came to mind. I have tubes hanging out of my body in order to prolong my life, while some people in the world have procedures done on them to reduce their life or make it more painful. It was a very uneasy feeling, but one that made me so grateful I am going through what I am going through for a positive outcome.

Now I am back home, the folks have just left after visiting, and Libs is cooking up some soup. The other major thing that hits us hard is how people go through this process alone. I could not imagine it, but on the occasion I come close, it feels like the loneliest feeling in the world. I can’t imagine being this sick and having to make it without Libs, my folks, sisters & BILs, and friends to get me through. I am certainly one lucky bunny.

6 comments.

Claire

Comment on April 17th, 2008.

Hello Cam.
yeah, loneliness is a funny/strange thing. We can have crowds of loving people around us and still feel lonely. I’m not suprised you feel lonely. Yes, you have fantastic friends and family around you, I know. But you are the only one who knows how it feels to be you right now.

Likewise for Elizabeth and your folks, your sisters and BILs and everyone else around you. There’s only One who knows exactly your thoughts and feellings. Knowing Him sure does make you one lucky bunny!

serendipity

Comment on April 18th, 2008.

Go, stem cells! Go with energy, life, and in the power of the Holy Spirit!

gm22

Comment on April 18th, 2008.

Let the healing begin!

Diane

Comment on April 18th, 2008.

Thankyou for sharing with us, Cam – You are never alone – The One who KNOWS ultimate loneliness is with you through it all, and He gives you those wonderful people to support you! May God continue to uphold you and your support team, and heal you.
Love and many, many prayers from Mae Sot.

Cam

Comment on April 18th, 2008.

I might need to clarify here. I can’t say that I have ever felt lonely during this ordeal, in fact it has been quite the opposite.

I have been very fortunate to have such wonderful people around.
My thoughts were to do more with empathising with those who are going through similar situations with very little to no support, alone.

I run into them each time I go to the hospital and I don’t know how they cope. I have no idea how they feel being in that situation, so I remain thankful for those around me.

Tezza

Comment on April 19th, 2008.

Hi Cam.. I can’t believe the stem stell transfer thing came up so quickly. I had April 17th locked into my head… and low and behold it has come and gone. I have had the sniffles so I have kept away, didn’t want you to pass it on before the stem cell procedure. Have been working 14 days straight too so I am run down. I hope to eat a vegetable tomorrow :-) …and went hunting and gathering to stock my fridge – an unusual occurance in single mans life. However the point of my post is I don’t think that you or Liz should go to the bin room – so I am offereing a “from your door garbage collection service”. Please place your garbarge bags inside your gate and then text me and I will collect. All though Heather bleaches the floor within an inch of its life I don’t think we need to take the risk. The germs in their I am sure would cover ones body and we would need to hose Libs down on the patio each time she went there. So please please I would like to help you keep infection free for faster recovery to the new you !

Sounds like we will have 4 handsome bald headed men in our complex soon :-)

Lot so thoughts and love.

x x x

Terry

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