Cold

Posted on May 17th, 2008 by Cam.
Categories: Let's talk.

This week I have been very cold. It has been role reversal in our house as Elizabeth is usually the one rugged up or under a blanket. These days though she is walking around in summer clothes while I have been in Ug boots, dressing gown and beanie. My bed has been a layer of blankets. I still have problems getting warm.

Apart from that though, things are getting better, albeit very slowly. I still have a bit of a chesty cough and no energy. My headaches seem to be getting less frequent and I have learned how to manage them a little better without having to take tablets.

Things are going to be kicking back into action next week. Elizabeth returns to work part time and I get stuck back into some projects. I have got about 5 appointments over the next two weeks and am going to try make it back to Chemo Gym/Club each Tuesday and Thursday. Life may get back to normal, you never know.

9 comments.

Allison

Comment on May 17th, 2008.

Hi Cam, have just caught up on quite a few episodes of your blog so i am now back up to speed. glad you have got through the hospital ordeal. sounds like sleep was a blessing. found your blog really interesting from one episode back – ‘the hunch’ i think. i think the faith thing is interesting. somebody put ‘the secret’ video on the other day when i was at their house and i had a brief look. i’m sure you’ve probably heard of it. it is laughed at by some and other people think its amazing and are trying to bring about conversions left, right and centre. anyway, as i was watching a bit of it there was someone recounting a personal experience about how they had ‘cured’ themself from cancer using the ‘secret’. i must say it was background tv so i can’t quote from it properly. but the gist was that it is about setting your sights on the goal that you really want and going for it in a positive mind set…..and the universe will provide- or that sort of thing. (for all you secret watches i’m probably blaspheming the secret right now). but it made me think – this is seemingly no different than the faith that i have been raised in to ‘believe and have faith’, and God will provide. someone who believes the universe will provide is still using faith. a christian names that faith as ‘God’. and the funny thing is both may or may not work. it seems to me the common denomonator is a strong positive belief. this then points to the power that we as human bings have within ourselves. when a faith is trusted whatever it may be, there is something unwavering at our own core. it may be this unwavering that is embedded in every part of our cells that is fighting or driving toward what we want and the power of that is power enough. this may sound very airy fairy, and i know that some people think that thoughts like this are going against God. but i don’t think that necessarily has to be true. God gave us brains and emotions, spirit, strength and weaknesses, why can’t we take some credit and use them for ourselves. it seems to me that the Christian faith wants to take away the fact that we have power as human beings – that we are nothing and God is everything. but if God made us we must have some remarkable abilities ourselves. it is perhaps insulting to God if we don’t use them. like you, my mind is always curious to explore more of life and question. i don’t know the answers but i think these are interesting things to question. while the bible is one book i don’t think God only hides in that one book. otherwise that would be making her too small (that’s the feminist in me). to me it is crazy that we even exist, but we do. so i struggle when people say this is the formula on how to get better or be cured. so in regards to your situation, i can’t give you any formular, but i know that a search is better that no search.
anyway, my friend, was good chatting. stay warm.
Love Alli.X

Cam

Comment on May 17th, 2008.

I understand what you’re saying Alli. When it comes down to it, if the woman who has faith in her silverbeet smoothy outlives me, whose faith worked?
You and I both understand that there are realities and complexities regarding God and His (or Her!) nature.
It seems a lot of people get through these issues by not questioning them. If things work out well, then great! If things work out crap, then the crowd goes silent, or God is justified with whatever reasons we can dig up. This eliminates the need to delve into the nature of God more, or understand what is going on.
Anyway, here’s to the search.
c

Allison

Comment on May 17th, 2008.

Oohhh yeah – here’s to the search! Yep, to question is scary because can we sit in not knowing? we don’t like doing that as humans. it feels scary in the tummy. we either find some beliefs that we can barracade ourselves in so we feel safe, or don’t bother thinking about them at all so we are then safe in the world of just what’s on the surface. and i’ve certainly swung from one to the other. the challenge is to see if we can walk the tightrope between the two when the net doesn’t seem to be there…..but maybe it is, we just can’t see it and that’s why we’re scared. now i’m starting to confuse myself but i love a good metaphor -ha!
Love Alli.

Allison

Comment on May 17th, 2008.

BUT WAIT, THERE’S MORE…. SO….if the smoothy’s DO work – is it just because she decided that is what would work for her? i wonder how she approached the smoothy cure? was it to wait for the smoothy remedy to work its magic as she sat there, or had the smoothy cure already worked because she had already decided that the smoothy cure was going to be the thing that fixed her, before the first mouthful was tasted. now its getting crazy…..tell me when you’ve had enough of my crazy head….

Cam

Comment on May 17th, 2008.

If this is the case, then I would definitely rather put my faith in pizza and beer over silverbeet smoothies. It would be a more palatable faith. I guess that is what we’re all looking for, really.
There must be metaphor in there, somewhere.

Ruth

Comment on May 17th, 2008.

Hi Cam

So great to hear you are feeling a little more normal. When I was freezing in hospital after a caesarian they put this big silver foil sausage thing around my whole body (up to my neck) and filled it with hot air… lovely… sounds like you need one of those!

We have just watched a great movie called “Faith Like Potatoes” about a Scottish/South African farmer. It was such an inspiring movie and really helped me to increase my faith. We were lent the movie, but I have just ordered another copy from Word online to lend to friends. We had a movie night here with a heap of friends on Thursday night where we watched the movie and had discussion afterwards… great stuff.

The second dvd where they do an interview with the real Angus Buchan (it’s a movie on his life) is really worth watching too… he is such an inspiration… such strong faith.

Hope your projects go well next week :-)

Sarah

Comment on May 18th, 2008.

Dude, hot water bottle, for all us coldies with no ability to retain heat :)

Guy in the white suit

Comment on May 18th, 2008.

Being an ex-Albany boy Cam, you should be well trained in finding ways to keep warm. As for Aunty Alison’s blog entry, that has to be a record for the longest singular piece of writing. Never would have expected that from Aunty Al.

Still reading and staying with you. Thanks for taking the time to write.

cam

Comment on May 18th, 2008.

Pleasure, Guy in white suit. Just to clear up possible identity fraud, Allison is a different Allison to Aunty Al.

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