I have to believe…

Posted on January 21st, 2010 by Cam.
Categories: Let's talk.

I had some good highlights today.  A random, incidental, encouraging chat with a like-minded soul at a cafe, taking some motorbikes for test-rides, having dinner with family I love, going to hear wonderful musicians play music wonderfully, catching up with dear friends.

By all accounts, I should be loving everything, enjoying everything.  But I still walked home stating to God “Father, I have to believe it will get better than this”.  I don’t know what I am expecting anymore.  My expectations of myself, others and life have not been realistic or helpful, so I don’t know where to place my expectations now.  This is a pressure in itself.

Anyway,  I am too tired for this tonight, and the meds have kicked in right on time.  Best not write.