need to break

Posted on February 8th, 2010 by Cam.
Categories: Let's talk.

There will be no posting for a while I feel.  At this time, I am completely and utterly spent emotionally.  In these last 5 days I have hit incredible highs with the birth of a beautiful neice Jemilla Gracie Barr, born to Rach and Michael.  The photos are here at  .  She is beautiful, healthy and so content.

Yesterday I visited a close friend who I met through Chemo Club.  We have been sharing our journey together over the last 18 months or so.  He is a Christian, paediatrition, father, husband, son, brother to list but a few.  We have prayed together and encouraged each other in the journey since the time of meeting.  Yesterday he couldn’t talk to me.  He is in a hospital bed in his living room and on pain medication only.  There is nothing medically they can do for him at this point. 

Same too for my friend Keith in London.  He treated me like his own son while I lived with he and his wife Christine (who treated me equally as amazingly) during my times in London.

There are others who are not in good health around me.  I have decided I can’t put myself in any other situation where trauma exists (yeah, I know, where does one go).

And there are other painful situations that go on at this same time.  Today I got to the point where I realised I have emotionally shut down and can’t cry anymore it seems.  A sympathetic protective response perhaps.  Or just pathetic, perhaps.

So just a note to say things will be quiet for a time.