Merry Christmas

Posted on December 24th, 2010 by Cam.
Categories: Let's talk.

Today Ash and I went to see Dr Brad.

After a pain in my ribs for a week or two, I suspected things weren’t going well.  I got some test results back this morning confirming that my cancer is once again back and the levels are way out of the safe zone.  This was not in the plan.

I have not written for a while as much has gone on that has been too difficult to write about, along with some great things happening as well.  The busyness factor has been out of control recently, as Ash and I prepare to get married in less than a month.  Ash has done an amazing job in organising so much, while I have been trying to get all my work done before the year is out.

My family continue to be amazing.  Mum has been looking after me at every opportunity and Dad again has come to my rescue invaluably to help me get my silver work completed.  For them, it is what they do normally, but for me, it has saved a lot of stress.

I am numb at the moment.  I think it was the first time today that I actually broke down a few times in the clinic.  I am usually fine until I have to tell other people, but when I see their reaction it is difficult to keep it together.  This is the first time that Ash has had to hear this kind of news first hand.  She has been such a support for me.  I have been so blessed to have people around me who have been incredible.

Enough for now.  Got to get on with being merry.  I guess it is a timely reminder at this time of year to spend whatever time we can with friends and family.  At least with Christmas eve, we know what season is around the corner.

2 comments.

Toddy

Comment on December 24th, 2010.

ah, crap. Sorry to read that. Still, you’ll be relieved and comforted by the fact that the season just round the corner is – ‘CRICKET SEASON’! With the 4th Test due to start on Sunday, you’ll be able to settle right in, so that you don’t miss a ball.

Married in a month? Man o man – you don’t muck about! Trust it all goes well.
Me? I moved to Albany so that I wouldn’t have to help with planning. You’ve gone with cancer. We all know that we do what we can to avoid wedding planning. Admittedly, cancer is pretty hard-core, Cam!

So – ribs? Spine? Pelvis? Where is it at, and what’s the prognosis, if you don’t mind me asking?

In the meantime, I hope you’n yours (including the Harris/Shiner/Brown etc extensions) have a great Christmas, and that the new year starts a little more positively than this one has ended.

2010 – it’s been an amazing ride for you, Cam. With all of the ups & downs that you could ask for. In the midst of this, I can’t help but think that you are living life far more than anyone else I know. By the number of ‘lived moments’ you’ve had, I reckon you’re closer to the age of 73 or so.

You’re moments are serving you well.

Catcha soon,
Todd(y)

Cam

Comment on December 27th, 2010.

Heya Toddy,
Thanks for the encouragement man, I have missed our virtual conversations:) The cancer is back in my ribs, I am quite certain, probably back where it was before. It may be quite close to my spine also as my back has been quite painful also. My whole body is in constant pain/discomfort, very rarely letting up. I am back on the oxys just to get through the day, but a managed dose (Ash does a great job in helping me manage this).
As soon as I qualify for the chemo, I have 12 months on the trial where I am able to get the Velcade. After my last lot of Velcade, I was able to have 4 months where I was in some kind of remission, so that may happen again. There is no planned treatment after this lot of velcade.
I am going to have a scan this week sometime to hopefully locate other active lesions so that I might have them radiated.
I am tired. I have had enough really.

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