The Walk Beside

Posted on April 10th, 2011 by Cam.
Categories: Let's talk.

Whenever I don’t write for a while, it is either because nothing is happening, or everything is happening. Everything is happening. Nothing is not happening.

Our lives are on full speed ahead, learning so much about the power of God, nature of God and love of God. Ash is getting baptized next week at Cottesloe Beach, at 3pm. We are experiencing amazing answers to prayer and believe healing is taking place over and over. We are convinced my time is far from over, and we accept that God has promised me old age and complete healing, so that is what we persist in.

I don’t know what I would be doing at the moment without Ash. She has been an amazing encourager, motivator and has inspired me in every way to persist in truth and life.

Ash located some people in Perth who are right into praying for healing, and do it with incredible power. We will continue there and with other things until complete healing comes. We are not obsessed with healing, we are obsessed with transformation – a life of complete dedication. We have been promised healing, that has been promised. Now we do what we can to accept it, believe it, claim it and live in it.

My grief is gone. The last few stints in hospital I found myself weeping uncontrollably. It was a mixture of being overwhelmed by being cared for so well, tiredness, and the being absolutely over having needles stuck in me over, and over, and over, and over. I had reached the end of my patience as far as being a patient is concerned. I want to leave this life of being surrounded by death and disease. I continue to choose life, yet occasionally I must tend to the medical needs of my body. This practice must come to an end, and miraculous restoration has to take its place.

I have had this last week off chemo, to give my body a break to recover. Tomorrow I start another cycle on the chemo trial. I am in two minds. On one hand, I really want to stop the chemo on the basis I believe it won’t be necessary. Then on the other hand, I have been here before and tumors have come back. I am running out of bones for the tumors to feed on, and I absolutely deny their right to my body anyway.

This is the most hideous, yet triumphant battle of my life. It has been more difficult than I could ever express here, and there are no words to explain what has gone on in recent years. That is why God gave us the ability to groan. Often, a groan accompanied by tears is the only thing that can adequately convey the deepest grief.

Now, I look forward to a lifetime ahead, and I believe this more than ever. I am not harping on about this as much as declaring it. I need to be surrounded by people who believe the same. I was reminded last night how blessed I am to have the people in my life that I have. People who have been praying for me relentlessly – I am overwhelmed. My thanks to you include my relentless continuation in pursuing an outcome that glorifies God, so that through this testimony, many will come to know the relentless love of our Creator. Word.

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